Tell Me You Don’t Want It

Sometimes i asked myself why am i doing this? Why can’t i just take the easy way out and leave everything to God? Leave it to fate and see what happens. But no, i’m not going to sit away and see my life waste away. I don’t make very good decisions in life and i regret making some of them. But this time baby, i don’t think i will want to look back and regret that i didn’t try. This shall be my turning point. I don’t care about mid life crisis or what so ever. I will stop being envious of people enrolling into universities, making new friends and having a whale of their time. I’m going to make good use of my gap year and do something i always want to be doing which is – writing. I hope i’ll pass the writing test and write! I hope this is something worthwhile to present to the professors at universities next year.

I won’t be ashamed because i take the longer road to finding out what i want and how to achieve it. I won’t be ashamed because i didn’t follow what others are doing by going to the private institution because that is the so called only way. I won’t be ashamed because i’m fighting for what i want and this is my future. I won’t be ashamed because my results are less than perfect and i don’t come from very good schools or have a good upbringing.

I think i like the way i am now.

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