All By Myself

Hi there, i won’t be updating here anymore. That’s definite.

In fact, you can join me on my witty adventures at www.onepennythought.wordpress.com

Owned by me and Jing Hui.

Well, tata for now.

The Road Less Travelled

It feels weird studying and also at this late hour too.

It reminded me of the previous year when i was studying for A level.

So much distractions on my study desk.

P/s: Marina Bay Sands Hotel was great! Thanks YH for the invite! I’m so glad for the long talk i had with the girls in the middle of the night! Eating cup noodles at an ungodly hour. I prefer my old friends. They know me better.

Tell Me You Don’t Want It

Sometimes i asked myself why am i doing this? Why can’t i just take the easy way out and leave everything to God? Leave it to fate and see what happens. But no, i’m not going to sit away and see my life waste away. I don’t make very good decisions in life and i regret making some of them. But this time baby, i don’t think i will want to look back and regret that i didn’t try. This shall be my turning point. I don’t care about mid life crisis or what so ever. I will stop being envious of people enrolling into universities, making new friends and having a whale of their time. I’m going to make good use of my gap year and do something i always want to be doing which is – writing. I hope i’ll pass the writing test and write! I hope this is something worthwhile to present to the professors at universities next year.

I won’t be ashamed because i take the longer road to finding out what i want and how to achieve it. I won’t be ashamed because i didn’t follow what others are doing by going to the private institution because that is the so called only way. I won’t be ashamed because i’m fighting for what i want and this is my future. I won’t be ashamed because my results are less than perfect and i don’t come from very good schools or have a good upbringing.

I think i like the way i am now.

Vanilla Twilight

Frankly speaking, i’m quite jealous of people who have already accepted their university offers and are looking forward to their matriculation and orientation. They seemed to have a whole new life ahead of them waiting for them to explore. Would things be different if i have studied harder?

I ended my Braodcast Journalism course at SMA on an enjoyable note. I learnt so much from that one week and it made me wondered whether i would have the opportunity to learn again. We have two fellow radio presenters with us from 93.8. I’m quite envious of the way they spoke and how they carried themselves. They also have an immense knowledge of current affairs. Both of them graduated from NUS fass, under New Media and Political Science.

One week has gone by so quickly and i’m going to be returning to my work soon. Again, the dark clouds in my world will start looming as i start thinking about what my next step should be. I could never find the answers i’m looking for in the forums or even from my friends because they won’t understand the situation i am in. Thankfully, i have known which are my true friends and which are my hi-bye friends.

I really want to upload photos but i haven’t charge my camera and i’m getting tired already. Maybe i’m just procrastinating.

Shock of the New Era

Happy belated birthday to the both of us!

if only i can like this post

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

Don’t Stop Can’t Stop

I’m OKAY!

I have no reason to be happy, do I?

I’m beginning to lose faith..in many things including myself.

I wish i wasn’t born in the first place.

My heart couldn’t take all this pain.

I’m on the verge of insanity that i can’t tell apart what is real or fake.

I want to be Happy again…

I have nothing to give

Why is everything going wrong for me?

I’m so tired. My tears can’t stop flowing.

I wish i can find an answer to all my problems.

Why am i so weak? I wish i can overcome my problems. If not i’ll never be able to overcome myself.